Sunday 1 December 2013

What my first job has taught me

So for over the past month or so, I joined many other individuals who are part of the elite working force. It was not a role that I was quite familiar with but being the person that I am, I believe in trying it out and giving things a chance to see if it would be a good fit or not.

As it turns out, it wasn't. The first few weeks were fine but as I slowly began to delve even deeper into it, I had an epiphany.

"I don't quite like this job."

It wasn't the workplace or anything like that but it was the lack of passion that I had for the actual work that I found to be troubling. My colleagues were passionate and enthused about the work they were doing. You could tell by the hours of effort they put in and the dedication in their eyes. I clearly lacked that.

I wondered if this was because of my lack of being able to adapt to the environment or something but the more I thought about it, the clearer it became.

This isn't what I want to do for a living... 

Then I had to ask myself, "What is IT that you want to do for a living exactly Tasha?"

Instinctively, right away both my heart and brain told me the same thing...

I want to write!

At that is what I shall do, I shall write. I cannot imagine myself doing anything else but this and if this is the dream that I want, who says that I can't do it now? 

We all know that the arrival of death is never a scheduled thing. We also know that time is something that needs to be utilized as best as possible. Yet, many of us are frightened to make that commitment to ourselves to go for what we want.

I'm afraid too. Of all the things that could go horribly wrong. Of all the consequences of my current actions and the actions yet to come. Then I think about the things that could go positively right. And it feels better.

I don't know what is going to happen in the future. I have a plan of sorts and I'm gonna work towards it properly but hey, things never really go according to plan do they? 

Whatever it is that you wanna do in life, love it. 

Love,
Geek with a pencil.